Posted on January 29, 2009 by benjamin67
Well today I took step one in restoring my faith. I reached out to someone I need to forgive in order to get back on the path.
I left my old church under less than ideal circumstances. The bitterness and anger have left a cancer on my soul.
I do not want to see this person [...]
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Posted on January 25, 2009 by benjamin67
I could never answer the question: What do you want to be when you grow up?
I had two reoccurring nightmares as a child.
Jesus is tied to the railroad tracks and I am trying to untie him before the train rolls over him.
Satan is in the sewer drain and drags me by the ankles to hell.
I [...]
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Posted on January 23, 2009 by benjamin67
Who said the end of the world would not be fun.
According to people at my parents’ church, Barack Obama is the anti-Christ. Thank goodness! All of the other anti-Christs from my childhood were so mean. Henry Kissinger was kind of grumpy. Nixon was too evil. Clinton was too messy (especially on blue dresses). Michael Jackson [...]
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Posted on November 3, 2008 by benjamin67
So I really intended to write about politics today. Then I read a friends blog. Someone who commented on his entry made a comment that I have heard all my life. For the sake of argument, I will boil down the sentiment being expressed: God is a Republican.
I think I have been fairly honest about [...]
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Posted on October 19, 2008 by benjamin67
Week 3 of Sunday school: This week is about being thankful. It is funny how I can be so cynical in adult worship, but so open to God while teaching Sunday school. In spite of all my negative mutterings on this blog, I am stunned by God’s sustaining my family. Statistically, I should be divorced [...]
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Posted on July 6, 2008 by benjamin67
I titled this entry Blur too, but for an entirely different reason. This morning a Ugandan Children’s choir visited our church. The singing and dancing were almost breathtaking. Their choreography was so rapid that literally they were a blur at times. And while they were dancing they were singing too. Only children could move and [...]
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Posted on June 11, 2008 by benjamin67
Last night I finished a Star Wars novel (Dark Lord: The Rise of Darth Vader). OK, I can hear the groans through my monitor. It is cheap pulp Sci-FI, but I can sometimes pull meaning out of a Huggies commercial, so go figure.
I am fascinated by the character of Darth Vader.
When I was a [...]
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Posted on May 27, 2008 by benjamin67
I want noodle salad. Watch the clip and you will understand.
At my old church, I attended a Men’s retreat. We were in small groups and the leader asked everyone to share the greatest moment of their lives. Without exception, all of them said, the birth of their child. That my friend [...]
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Posted on May 17, 2008 by benjamin67
The Fam and I went out to dinner with some friends from our old church. They felt the need to tell Jenn and me how awful the new music director is.
It was my hope that I had “moved on” since leaving Floris. But their comments lanced a hidden boil in my soul. It just [...]
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Posted on May 11, 2008 by benjamin67
Today was Mothers, confirmation, Pentecost Sunday. Too many themes for my tiny brain. They showed a 13 minute movie from Willow Creek about church history. I got a little teary. Then they started the confirmation service, and that was it. We have a high pollen count today, but that was not the source of my [...]
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